Just Because...: Time for a Wake Up Call...

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Time for a Wake Up Call...

If any of my friends can agree on one thing, it is this - I sometimes forget that I need to take some downtime and rest and relax. Friday morning I had a bit of a wakeup call. We had a big business thing that's been going on all week and the stress finally kicked me in the butt by it's own wake up call - chest pains.

This wasn't the first time I had them - I had them Tuesday morning as well, but brushed them off. Friday, though, it was worse. It felt like something had bruised my ribs and it hurt like a wench. However, I had no shooting pains on my left hand side, no numbing and no dizziness. I still had to deal with this work thing and immediately that morning walked into drama - "Find this - Get That - Hurry Hurry" you get the picture. When I finally was able to get a bit of time to take a breath and have my morning coffee at 12:30 that afternoon, I called my doctor. After a bit of a verbal tussle with his nurse, I'm happy to say that I'm scheduled for Monday afternoon for a one on one discussion about why things have gotten to this level. I love what the nurse said - "If you called this morning he could have seen you, but if something happens over the weekend, get to the Emergency Room". I'm 35 - I'm NOT going to have a heart attack at 35. Hell to the NO!

So, I cleared the boards, any plans I did have were scrapped and I've laid low. The cell phone is turned off. Drama is not welcome. I even started to cook again - the past week I haven't had the time to do so, and remembered how cooking calms me. When I start to find myself getting stressed out, I step back and breathe.

I know BR, Meowmix and Bec are going to slap me in the head, and rightfully so - this is the first vacation that I will not be calling and checking in to work and instead, will spend time with family and friends. My girl, Am, hit things on the head with advice about anxiety attacks and the type of work we all do and how it interacts. If anything, she shared some experiences she went through which were really helpful. I just have to learn how to adapt. And her suggestion of decaf also helped.

Roomie has been a huge help all weekend. Wench even pulled one over on me - I was going to grab my mixer yestserday from the office and, when I left my room to go down there *boom* in front of my door was my mixer. Roomie's friend and her lugged that huge contraption up the stairs and suprised the living crap out of me.

I just need to really take my time and evaluate everything. I was going to do a ton of stuff today, but you know what - if I get to it - fine. If I don't - that's fine too. The world is not going to end. And I'm not going to let life kick me in the butt again.

Posted by Lys :: 3:31 PM :: 1 comments

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Sunday, November 19, 2006