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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Mary over at Debt Proof Living posed an interesting question and, in light of recent events and things that have been holding me back, she wanted to know: "What would you do if you weren't afraid?".

Wow - now that question is deep. Seriously, I think the only thing that is holding me back from true success is "What if". I mean, yes, we all have the same struggles and day to day drama that eats away at one's positivity, however, looking at the past year, I have to list the number of successes that I have achieved and see where I can go to bigger and better things:

Con: Money was tight and credit - notsogood.
Upgrade: Got a raise, learned about my 401(k) to maximize, started reading PF blogs and applying principles so I can get my finances in check. I don't really need yet another pair of shoes or a bag every pay check, ya know.

Con: Living in Tourist Hell aka Buena Vista Point with crime rampant and not loving Orlando Politics and the drama that came with living in that area.
Upgrade: Moved out of BVP Hell and moved into a gorgeous 3rd Floor Apartment in gorgeous Uptown Altamonte Springs. Granted the rent is $400 more than I'm used to and utilities are a bit more, but it's well worth it.

Con: Became more of a "hermit" and didn't empower myself.
Upgrade: Renewed relationships with my Philly crew that have been "out of touch". Also have started to get to know people within the Altamonte Area and stopped being so damn shy! I'm fabulous, (or so I'm told), I just need to accept it and have a bit more confidence.

Con: Not kosher with how things have gone with things at the day job - it was more of a me being uninspired and feeling stagnant & hitting the "glass ceiling" of sorts.
Upgrade: Jumped back into the PR game with my feet first - granted there is always the pesky matter of the Day Job, but still - in time in time.

Con: Not sure where things are going with the PR stuff. Have not found many of the PR stuff in Orlando very umm.. inspiring.
Upgrade: Renewed the motto that I will not promote or endorse anything I don't firmly believe in. Will refuse to sell myself out for a "paying" client when the product is not what I feel it could be. So, with that, JZ finished his album, renewed contacts with the Philly crew sprang a new client which Reese & I both love and, while we might have to undergo a firm name change, this time we're going to do it right. Thankfully the legal background is a plus.

So, what I am afraid of - clearly and plainly - SUCCESS. I have this nagging thing called Self Doubt and you know, I really need to let that go. I know I'm a great entertainment publicist, have fabulous mentors that have always been there for me to cheer me on and I really am great at what I do. Now, I need to start valuing that and start acting like a big girl, ya know? Not to mention, how long am I going to have to keep hitting the "ceiling" until I really get the courage and drive to do what I love (and get paid for it).

What would you do if you weren't afraid?

Labels: Goals, Random Mess

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