Just Because...: Why Is It...

Monday, October 06, 2008

Why Is It...

that Orlando drivers just cannot drive in the rain?
that whenever I see a car acting erratically, it turns out that 90% of the time, the driver is on a cell phone?
that Macy*s weekly sale doesn't thrill me like it used to?
that buying a coat is so damn expensive?
that finding long(er) leather gloves that fit is like finding the Arc of the Covenant in Orlando (and no, I know it's not at Holy Land!)?
that I can't seem to focus on one particular thing and my mind won't stop racing?
that I think I'm dealing with a touch of depression which will soon lead to the cranky, moody wench everyone around me despises?
that keeping the cranky moody wench side of me under control is more of a chore than ever?
that the fact I'm really leaving this apartment has set in and is starting to freak me out a bit?
that I'm afraid of what's in store for me in 117 days?
that I'm afraid to trust again, for fear of getting my heart torn into shreds?
that I am such a control freak that I have to anticipate everything that might happen and an adequate response for such thing?
that based on my control freak nature, I have some serious trust issues with people?
that, while we're on a control freak streak, I have to always be the assertive one? Why can't I just let someone else take the lead for a change?
that I have a severe case of self doubt when it comes to a situation due to something a "friend" once said many moons ago. I didn't think of the comment until this weekend and my insecurity demon raised its nasty blond head.
that I always tend to wonder if people have a motive behind everything they do?
that I hide behind business rather than just having fun?
that again, my inner control freak won't shut the eff up???
that I self sabotage whenever I seem to have the opportunity?

Yeah - it's been quite a weekend, my friends.

Labels: Blog 365, Random Mess

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